Playing Catch Up and Making Choices

What's this?! A post!? Never mind it's been almost two months awhile since the last one; live in the moment, people!

I've missed my little blog, but haven't had anything clever enough to break through the apparent box of silence I've been in. I'm learning more and more to stop pressuring myself to feel as if I need to do "everything." "Everything" is different for each of us, but I believe it's imperative to one's happiness and brain capacity we take a moment to recognize that it's okay for some things not to happen.

For me, both recently and the past several months, it's been this blog. For a while I contemplated whether or not I wanted to just delete this part of my life and move on, but that seemed far too drastic and severe. So here I am, a few weeks little bit since my last post, hoping y'all are still around!

Due to the box of silence, a recap 2014 so far seems not only fitting, but necessary!

we had dinner with some wonderful friends//enjoyed winter weather//really enjoyed beautiful spring weather//started doing Body Pump twice a week//started an amazing, thought-provoking book//
spent some time with my fantastic nephew//had a few dates with this guy//
bought a tutu for the Color Run//went to the ACC tournament//


I made two decisions at the beginning of this year; to stop breaking promises to myself and to face this year head on. So far, I feel comfortable in saying these two things have happened. Although I've learned life goes by faster than the blink of an eye, that doesn't give me an excuse to sit back, see it pass, and talk about how fast it's going. This year, as any year, has the potential to be awesome, but I have to choose to see it that way no matter what.  God will allow me and push me to and through trials this year, but through all that, I have to know and believe He sees me (Genesis 16:13).  I will actively choose joy and thankfulness. My life, and this world, is not something I can be passive about.

Something else I decided a while ago is to have a really high priority on happiness and finding something to be happy about. Each day, life can hand you lemons, throw curve balls, and a myriad of other cliches, but in the midst of all that, it is ultimately my choice to be happy. Bad moods, days, weeks are going to happen; some worse than others, but when it's all said and done, there is far more to rejoice over than not.

There are far too many things and circumstances we can't choose or control, but for the things we can, we should choose well and wisely.

Choose joy. Choose thankfulness. Choose happiness.



Seven Things on a Snow Day

...one...Snow days! Got one today and loving every minute of it! I am a big kid when it comes to winter weather.

...two...I plan on spending a part of this snow day figuring out what I want to make eat for Super Bowl Sunday
these will probably happen again
 ...three...I can't believe the Super Bowl is this weekend...I don't really care for January, but I can't believe it's almost over

...four...This commercial. Y'all. I can't.

...five...I can't explain why, because I'm not a drinker, but I loved this shirt and bought it for some reason. It makes me laugh and happy to be a southern girl I guess.

...six...We met Muggsy Bogues!

...seven...I have rewatched the first two seasons of Rookie Blue and and irrationally upset I don't have the third season on DVD.

I could probably list out 15 more random things, but I'll stop it at seven. Happy Wednesday, y'all!




(This post comes from a place of just wanting to write. No rhyme or reason...just some rambling that was laid on my heart)

I am learning more and more, with each passing day that life is something that cannot be predicted or, at times, even understood.

Each of us imagine what we believe our lives will be like. Every day, we wake up with some thought of what will happen and how it will end. But the thing is, we truly have no idea. In some respect, that can be terrifying, but it can also be incredibly exciting and liberating. We have the chance to make our days what we want and that is a gift.

Aside from sending His son, I believe one of the greatest gifts God ever gave us is the chance to live our lives.

Pause just for a moment, take a breath, and rest on that fact. It's just...awesome. God could've dictated our lives starting from the first breath we took, but He didn't. He allows us to have fun, to hurt, fall down, mess up, and start all over again. We can find out what we love, what we hate, what we can't live without.

He gives us the chance to choose Him.

Simply, He gives us the chance to live.

Life and living cannot be taught. We learn, sometimes on a daily basis, what it means to us to live. We learn we will be disappointed and we will be elated. We learn there will be moments that break us and moments that build us. We learn life is constant only in the way in changes.

There are times I may hate the circumstances I am facing, but instead of praying for God to change them, I want to pray that He change my heart and my mind. I want to accept that where I am is where I am supposed to be.

I have no idea what each of you are facing today, but I hope that you are given the chance to take a step back, look at it, and see it for what it can be. Let it be a chance to strengthen you. An opportunity to catch a glimpse of the bigger picture.




Being Brave and Brief

The words I am about to type, I've typed a hundred times in some variation...how in the world are we more than halfway through the first month of 2014 and I written zero posts?!

Hello, broken record, party of one.

I'm hoping to start coming up with a blogging plan, but we'll see if that happens. I have long since stopped beating myself up about not blogging as much as I'd like. Life happens, you get busy, priorities shift. It's okay.

On an separate, completely unrelated note, I have, somewhat inadvertently, come up with a mantra of sorts for myself for this year...
This is not something I normally do, but for some reason, these two words have been resonating with me. I want to live this life I've been given fearlessly. As my good friend Taylor Swift once said, "Fearless is not the absence of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, fearless is having fears. fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death."

I hope to write a more complete, thought out post about this, but for now, I leave you with this...

(Anyone else obsessed with the Divergent series?)


Look Up to 2014

December 31 is a funny day.  We want to look back while also looking ahead, and that's not an easy thing to do.  I was a little unsure of how 2013 would go. 2012 was definitely not my favorite year, and I was not sad to see it go.  Because of the trials and lessons last year brought, it is safe to say I was more than a little apprehensive on what this year would bring.

2013 brought forth it's own set of lessons and trials.  I know the moments I was walking through those lessons and trials, I would've traded anything to give them to someone else, but I look back on them with a thankful heart. We're only what we've lived through.

How is truly possible to use one day to look back on the previous 364...? I'm not sure, but I'll give it a try.


In 2013....

+ we celebrated our sweet nephew's first year of life

+ we celebrated our five year wedding anniversary...

+ we went to some baseball games

+ I got a tattoo

+ I forgot I was a "grown-up" and embraced feeling 22

+ we spent time with amazing friends

+ I met a Carolina basketball player (no, I'm not exaggerating when I say this was something I'll remember about this year)


Words and pictures can only do so much when trying to look back on the past 364 days.  Life, more often than not, cannot be explained or recapped. Life can only be lived, and I believe I did that this year. There were times of frustration and heartache, but there were also times ridiculous happiness and joy.

I have high expectations for 2014, but expect nothing. I will not settle, but I also will not pretend to know what God has in store for me or us. I will rest in His word and His promises.

:::Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today...
The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still:::
Exodus 14:13-14

In 2014, I want to look up; not forward or back, but to Him for each and every step. I know there will be moments where I will feel as though I don't have the strength to lift my eyes, but in those moments, I need to remember His promises to fight for me. To be still. To wait.

I want for 2014 to be the year I stand firm in all that I do and say.  I'm tired of breaking promises to myself. I want to be brave, and I don't mean in the sense of wielding a sword, but in the sense of living my life in the way God calls me to live. 2014 needs to be the year I look back on and clearly see my feet planted in Him. For our marriage and life to be a sponge for His word.

I want 2014 to be the year I give my life up to Him. I accepted the Lord years ago, but I want to be done being selfish and doing things halfway. I vow to make 2014 to be the year I live up; a year that settling is an option for me or those I love. 

2014 could very well end up being the hardest year of my life, but I know for a fact that nothing can separate me from the love of God (Romans 8:38), and it is in that fact alone I will rest. 

I'm ready for the next 365 days. 



Christmas {2013} Recap

I am that person that says "merry Christmas" to people days after Christmas.  This wonderful holiday is one I believe should not end when then calendar moves on to the 26th.  And with that said, I hope each and every one of you had a wonderful Christmas.

Ours was amazing, but per usual, it went by way too fast. Thankfully we never have to travel far or much, so that definitely helps us to enjoy this wonderful holiday with very little stress.  It's tradition that the Saturday before Christmas is spent at my nana and papa's and it's one that I love. We eat, talk, laugh, and of course, open presents.

Part of our Christmas present to one another was to go to the Candlelight Evening at Biltmore, so Sunday afternoon, we hit the road again and made our way Asheville.  We had supper at a cute little downtown restaurant called Pack's Tavern. The food was great and I tried mulled wine for the first time. It was definitely a festive drink, but not one I would want a lot of.  Unfortunately, that night there was some torrential rain going on, so we got one picture while at the Biltmore, but it was beautiful on the inside!

Christmas eve was close to perfect.  The day started off with a trip to Winston-Salem to see my parents, brother, sister-in-law, and of course, our oh so adorable nephew.

He is very into the moon right now, so it was way excited about the pj's we got him.  I need to savor that because I'm pretty sure that will be one of the few times he'll be that excited about clothes :)  Andrew got some awesome new-old vinyl records; The Eagles and The Beatles.  Two great reasons to get a new record player!  I got an awesome Bauer calendar which will make each month of 2014 ridiculously cute.

That evening was spent celebrating alongside Andrew's side of the family.  Food was eaten, presents were opened and overall, it was a wonderful, chaotic night.

Andrew's grandparents gave us an amazing present of watercolor portraits of our pups! I couldn't help but shedding a tear or two when I opened it.


Christmas eve night and day were spent relaxing and watching movies.  It was a fantastic Christmas and I am so sad to see it go.



Merry Christmas to all!

Merry Christmas from our family to yours!