Seek and pray, pray and seek


Have you ever noticed that there are some many times throughout the day, we are purely focused on what we want?  I have noticed that I am on certain levels becoming increasingly selfish. I want what I want and I want it when I want it. It is human nature to plan (unless you're a guy) and we want to believe that we have some control over what will actually happen. And obviously to some extent we have control over what happens; but moreover, we have control over how we handle and react to things that happen to us. One thing I have been struggling with is being patient and content in the place where God has me at this point in time of my life. At this point of my life (my ripe old age of 24) I believed that I would've had a career started, that Andrew and I would be homeowners, and the fairytale continues from there. I'm sure God at one many points in time has just stared at me thinking "Um...HELLO?!". 

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. -- Hebrews 11:1

Faith isn't about trusting what we already have; faith is about believing what has yet to pass. He does not change like shifting shadows and everything that He gives is perfect. 

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. --Jeremiah 29:13

Seeking God with my whole heart has been a struggle for me. I seek God and I desire Him, but sometimes, I just want parts of who He is. My flesh can still take over and I feel my earthly desires overriding my desire for God's will to be done.  It's hard to be patient and just to wait....and sometimes the waiting continues....until one day when you have finally stopped trying to plan your life, God reveals to you just what He's been working on.  And the most amazing thing about that is that what He's been working on is for you and you alone. He has given it His undivided attention and love...if that's not worth waiting on (in ANY capacity of life) then I don't know what could ever be.

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