Wednesday Thoughts

9.29.2010

I have no idea what to blog about, so you get to read the following...

  • With the temperatures finally falling past the 90 degree mark, I have pulled out my fall candles and Bath & Body Works Wallflowers. And I must say, surprisingly, the Creamy Pumpkin is my favorite for now.
  • I have officially been bitten by the craft bug and I want to create something else! Please let me know if you have any ideas...and keep in mind, I'm new to this, so be kind.
  • My friend Nicole also has been letting her creative juices flow and made her own planner. Now while some may wonder why make it when you can buy it, I love it! I can never find one that just suits everything I'm looking for {and I am picky}. So for $10 she is making one that is personalized and that is enough to make my week!
  •  Our yard has been drinking in all of this rain since Sunday and it makes my heart happy
  • Andrew & I are leaving on Friday to see our grandparents down in South Carolina. It will be so nice to spend some time with them as well as attend the Shrimp Festival {Andrew is really pumped for that}.
  • We have at least 1 fun, fall thing planned for every weekend of this month

  • I've decided that I want a birthday party on my birthday this year. Details to come

  • Next time I say I want to cut my hair short, please discourage me

  • Grey's Anatomy and Big Bang Theory season premiers were last week and they did not disappoint.

  • I started the newest Nicholas Sparks book "Safe Haven" and I'm enjoying it so far




And with that I'm done. If you have any suggestions for a more interesting blog post, please, I'm open to anything!

Happy Wednesday!

Lies, Fear & Avoidance

9.28.2010

For as long as I can remember, I have been an avoider. For some odd reason, I am under the impression that if I don't address something or even acknowledge it's existence, it will just go away. Newsflash to me; it doesn't. This may apply to pimples, but not to real life. I have yet to figure out why I do this, because over the years, I've learned, it doesn't work. Problems have to be faced in order to be fixed. Lies and fear {one in the same} are the evil twin sister of avoidance and they come as a package deal. They have been visiting me a lot lately. What makes all of this worse is that knowing God and His goodess should make it easier to not allow those things in my life. But lately, this has not been the case. Lies and fear make me think about what will happen if I cannot find a job after my project ends in January. They make me think the worst case scenarios; not having money for food, losing our house, the list goes on and on...in my head and only in my head. I have already known God as a provider, yet I still hear the lies and fear skipping through my mind. And the worst part about it is that lies and fear have the same maker--satan.Why listen to anything that is even breathed by anyone that isn't God? There is only one answer to that; I shouldn't. I have only known of God's goodness in my life, so why would I start doubting that at this season in my life?

In absence of answers. In absence of possibilities. In absence of comfort.

In absence of it all, His goodness is revealed.

"My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts," says the LORD. "And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.--Isaiah 55:8 {NLT}


If the Good Word said nothing else, that verse alone should sustain me. Why doubt Him? Why try to control my life when I know that He's in control and that means everything is as it should be? So I ask God to simply silence the lies and take away the fear.

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.--1 John 4:18 {NIV}

I know I've posted similar things, but I'm working on this and this is a great medium for me to face it. With that said, please pray for me.

Cinnamon Stewed Apples

9.27.2010

In the spirit of the beautiful fall weather and our newly decorated house, I decided to keep the trend going and made cinnamon stewed apples last night. They were the perfect compliment to our pork tenderloins and reminded me yet again how much I love this season. I was shocked at how easy they were and even more shocked that I had all of the ingredients to make them!

Ingredients


6 cups chopped peeled apples (about 6-7 apples)

1/2 cup packed brown sugar

1/4 cup apple juice

1 teaspoon ground cinnamon

1/8 teaspoon ground nutmeg

1/8 teaspoon salt

Preparation

Combine all ingredients in a large, heavy saucepan. Cover and cook over medium-low heat 45 minutes or until apple is tender, stirring occasionally. Let stand 5 minutes

all you need!
in the process of making deliciousness!



Sprinkles of Fall Goodness

9.26.2010

If you haven't noticed, autumn is my favorite season. But considering all of September has been filled with 90 degree weather, I haven't brought myself to pull out my fall goodies. Until yesterday. In anticipation of today's weather, a fall wreath was constructed, candles were lit and kitchen towels were changed. And today has not disappointed with a current temperature of 70 and rain falling from the sky.
the makings of a beautiful autumn wreath


I love all things pumpkin


dining table centerpiece
we were trying our best to be creative!

and the final product!
And to top it all off, I had my first pumpkin spice latte of the season.
photo found here


Welcome fall...I'm so glad you came to stay awhile.

Confession Time

9.24.2010

So for those of you that remember this post may be somewhat surprised for what I am about to admit to the blogging world...

I have massive baby fever.

There! I said it! I myself am still in shock over this fact. I mean, I love babies and I knew that I would want one eventually. I just didn't think that eventually would be this soon. It also doesn't help that a large percentage of our friends are either already parents or about to be parents. I am always so happy to hear that one of our dear friends is expecting, but that longing feeling seems to always sneak into my heart. With this feeling only growing and not going anywhere, I told Andrew this week that I need for him to give me a solid window of time that we could start trying. So after discussing it for little bit on Tuesday night, we came up with what is the perfect time for us. And though the Lord may have other plans, we at least have an idea.

And yes, I know babies are a lot of work and they change your life, etc, etc. But I know that Andrew and I will be excellent parents...and it's not like we're having one tomorrow. So if that's all you can offer me, please do not.

So 3 years ago...

9.23.2010

{I realize before even starting this post, that most people that read my blog know mine and Andrew's engagement story and experienced our wedding day. But if there are any readers that don't know, here it is...}

Andrew and I started dating {officially} April 2, 2006, but our first kiss was definitely before that. So with that said, you could probably argue the starting date. I knew within the first 6 months that this was the man that I'd want to spend the rest of my life, but since I was only 21 at the time and still in school, that obviously wasn't going to happen. And I don't say that with any bitterness, because with both still need to grow up in different ways. And even though I knew the time would come when it was supposed to, I couldn't help but to feel anxious to have a diamond on my left ring finger. God gave Andrew so much patience during that season. He never got frustrated with me and he didn't do it until he knew that it was God's time for us.

October 13, 2007 started off with me helping a friend of mine pick out her wedding dress. I got to the bridal store early, so I called my mom to talk to her while I waited. I talked about Kaitlyn's wedding day and dress picking out and my mom asked me when did I think Andrew would ask me. I said I wasn't sure and she followed up with a question that really worried me; she asked if I thought it would be next year. My heart dropped! I couldn't believe he hadn't even talked to them yet! Because if he had, she wouldn't have asked that question. But shortly after that, the bride to be arrived so I had to stop worrying about the ring I had yet to receive and focus on the one she already had! That was the day I discovered just how overwhelming bridal stores can be. Everywhere you turn is white and taffeta. Whoa. After we finished scouring the racks and trying on multiple dresses, we parted ways and I headed down to Charlotte to see Andrew. On the way down, I called my mom and told her it was a good idea that I wasn't getting married right now because I would have no idea how to pick out a wedding dress.

When I got down to Charlotte, Andrew and I hopped right back in the car and picked up some Chic Fila. I assumed we'd just go back to his parents house to watch football, but when he suggested going to Winget Park, I thought nothing of it. So we ate and talked and enjoyed the nice fall weather. When we both finished, I asked if he was ready to go and  he said that he'd like to take a walk first. Again, I thought nothing of it and agreed. So we strolled down the walking trail until we got to a somewhat secluded part, and he stopped. So I stopped. Then he put his cup on the ground, straightened up, and took mine and put it on the ground. At this point, I was definitely a little confused. But he gave me a huge hug and told me he loved me. Then he held me at arms length and just looked at me for about 20 seconds in silence. Before I could question what he was doing, he dropped to one knee and pulled something out of his pocket. I couldn't even look down. I was so shocked and just kept asking "are you serious?". After the shock wore off a little, I realized he was talking and asking me to be his wife. Finally, it registered and I said yes. He stood up and placed the ring on my finger and embraced me once again. I then proceeded to inform him that we couldn't put it on Facebook because I wanted to tell our friends up at Appalachian in person. I called my mom {again} who, of course, had known all along and squealed and cried some more.

I loved our engagement day because it represented our relationship; sweet and simple.

I wouldn't have changed anything. And it was my most favorite day...until June 14, 2008 when I became a wife.


big cheesy smiles!

so happy
 I tell this story now because I love it and now that I'm married, I don't get to tell it anymore! So for those who didn't know it, now you do!

Foolish

"A fool vents all his feelings, but a wise man holds them back." Proverbs 29:11

This was the verse for the Proverbs 31 daily devotional that I received today. And it was today that I realized how much of a fool I can be. So many times I start out phone conversations with "I just need to vent" or walk into my office at work and say that to my office mate. As someone that is striving to learn more patience and how to give more grace, this is something I really need to work on. And I know this is one area I can't even attempt to do on my own.

{This is a excerpt from the devotional}

Words vented in frustration can seem so small.
Slightly disrespectful attitudes can seem so small.
Complaining about lack of finances can seem so small.
Brushing off his desires can seem so small.

How often do you find yourself thinking the same things? I know I do and it's much more frequent then I'd like to admit. Everyday I say things that I automatically wish I could take back, but unfortunately, that's not an option.  So you learn. You learn what to say, how to say it, when to say it and if it is really worth saying in the first place. I'm going to be honest for a moment and tell you something embarrasses me to type or even revisit in my mind; I am a drama queen. In my mind, I can take anything that someone {especially Andrew} says or the way they say it, and make it 10 times worse then it should ever be. And I overreact. I'll leave the room, shut slam the door and basically act like a child. And as soon as I do the first part of that, I realize how more often than not, I'm being a fool. But that's when pride steps in and I follow through with other two parts. It's embarrassing and I'm working on allowing God to move in me and calm myself down before I start acting like me. I'm not saying that it's not good to leave a room sometimes to stop yourself from saying something you will inevitably regret, but it's all in the way that you do and the reason you do. Sometimes there are reasons, but a lot of times in my case, there is no reason. I'm just acting childish.

I say all of that to say this, don't get prideful and don't get lazy. Not only in marriage, but all relationships. Don't brush it off, overreact or act any manner that isn't loving and respectful. God surrounds us with the people that can walk through seasons with us, wrap their arms around us and pray for us. Why jeopardize any of those things just so you can feel justified or make sure they know that you're upset. What worth does that hold?

None.

4 Legged Children

9.22.2010

Yes, I know that dogs are no substitute, but they're the closest you can get...

I can't imagine our lives without Sam & Dani...I love them probably more then what could be considered normal. But they really do make our lives complete. They are our family. Just wanted to share those thoughts and pictures.

Dear Summer

9.19.2010

Indian summer 
n.
1. A period of mild weather occurring in late autumn.


Dear Summer,

I am over you. And have been for quite some time. It would not make me the least bit upset if I didn't see you for a minimum of 9 months. So if you could, exit gracefully. There is no need to dump more 90 degree weather on us. Now is the time for leaves, pumpkins, warm smells and football games that require hooded sweatshirts. In short, you are no longer welcomed here, so please, go away.

Sincerly,

a lover of cooler weather and all things fall

p.s. I have several new pairs of cute boots that I cannot enjoy until you have left. So speed it up.

On My Heart

9.18.2010

For a few months now, the Lord has been working on and shaping my heart. I am constantly working on being less selfish and it doesn't always happen, but I'm trying. One thing that has been on my heart for awhile now, is to step way out of my comfort zone and do a missions trip. It would be a short term trip {roughly 7 days} and I'm currently praying about going to Haiti. There is no need for me to tell you about the devastation that has happened there. They are still rebuilding, cleaning, and need all the help and prayer we can provide. Andrew wouldn't be able to go, so I am working on getting a team {just need 1 other person} together for next spring or summer. So if you believe that the Lord has led you to do something like this, or you would just like to go help out, please let me know! I can give you more information!

"The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field." -- Matthew 9:37-38

{photo from here}

A Virtue I Do Not Have

9.15.2010

Patience has never been a quality of mine. In fact, I'd say it's probably my biggest struggle. Just wait on the Lord, be patient with what He is doing, etc...I say these things to not only to others, but to myself! For some reason though, it's always been a weakness. I pray for patience and I expect God to just give it to me. But instead, He gives me opportunities to be patient. I fail constantly! I hate it!

Today, I was given the chance to meet with the Director of Business Development for Raycom Sports. I didn't enter this meeting/interview anticipating an overly positive or negative result. And what I walked away with was a good middle ground answer. I was informed that while there isn't anything currently, that is more than likely going to change by the beginning of the year. And he also offered to utilize his connections at other various companies in the Charlotte area to help me find what I want in a job. So you would think I'd feel happy with all of these statements. But no, not me. I have to make things difficult for myself and wonder why I have to wait...



We must let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the one that is waiting for us.
-Joseph Campbell


I know that I cannot begin to wrap my mind around what God has in store for me. It could not be a job in the sports world at all. And I know and trust that whatever He has preparing for me, that He'll give me peace for that. It's just the waiting part that I'm no good at. But as Dr. Seuss once said

Somehow you'll escape all that waiting and staying.
You'll find the bright places where Boom Bands are playing.
 
Dr. Seuss was smart...
 
But God...that's who I'm gonna trust. 
 
I know He'll get me to where I need to be. 
 
Even if there aren't Boom Bands playing 


Second Chances

Every moment is a second chance, at starting over, at starting over. Move from the past to the present tense. You can start over, start over again. If you feel ashamed of the choices that you’ve made, you can be whole again and return to your innocence -- Addison Road

I listened to this song on the way to work and though I've heard it many times, this was the first time it really dawned on me how true this is. And the only reason it's true is because of God's unending grace. Everyone has done or is doing things that they regret or wish they could go back in change. But the moments in your life that make you look back and wonder "what was I thinking" are also moments where God was working on you. Working on your selfishness, your insecurities, your wounds, your heart. I do believe that everything happens for a reason. I don't voice it often because I do not think that it should be cliche. Every minute of every hour of everyday should be appreciated for what it is. And though every day should glorify God, I'm going to be honest, and say that I know not everything I do is glorifying. I try. I really do. But sometimes I'm mean and selfish and not merciful to those around me. And that's a hard thing to admit and a hard thing to know how to change.

But God...

God reminds me in those moments of  much He is a grace-giving, merciful, loving God. And though I feel ashamed much of the time for how I act and react, He reminds me yet again, of how to learn and grow from those want to forget moments. And though this is cliche, I believe it needs to be said -- you cannot change the past. What's done is done. The only thing that you can do is to determine how you will react to those moments going forward.

Be merciful, grace-giving, loving, compassionate, and above all, be faithful. Trust the Word. Listen to God. Believe in what His promises are.

Thoughts to Kick Off the Week

9.13.2010

  • I had to wear a jacket this morning to take the dogs out. Made me realize just how happy I was to have fall knocking at the door
  • Found out this morning that Shaun Draughn will be able to play this Saturday against the Georgia Tech Yellow Jackets. Go Heels!
  • Even without Jake Delhomme, the Panthers are still not good.
  • I've decided to get some lowlights put in my hair. I want something a little different for fall.
  • I had a personal yard sale triumph this past Saturday: I found a very unique Louis Vuitton canvas bag with leather straps...price paid: $4! Love it!
  • AND I got an incredibly cute duffel bag from a store in Clemmons called Hip Chics Boutique
  •  
the LV bag and my new duffel bag
  • I started planning a mother/daughter mountain day trip for October. It'll be nice to go breath in the fresh mountain air, see the leaves and attend the Woolly Worm Festival in Banner Elk.

  • It is taking much of my strength to not light all of my fall scented candles in my house or plug in my wallflower from Bath & Body Works
  • I'm taking my first Zumba class tonight. Kinda terrified since I possess no rhythm whatsoever, but I've heard good thing.
  • My hubby came home yesterday after 4 long days in Richmond for work. Have I mentioned, I don't like NASCAR?
  • I have my meeting with Raycom this Wednesday. It could be nothing, or as a good friend said, it could be life changing. No pressure right?
  • The 3rd season of Big Bang Theory comes out tomorrow and Andrew & I are probably a little bit too excited. 

  • There are currently 3 CD release dates on my Google calendar: Kenny Chesney, Taylor Swift & Rascal Flatts
  • I finished South of Broad by Pat Conroy last week and now I need suggestions. 

  • Also, we're in search of a good chili recipe for this fall. Let me know if you have one.
Surprisingly enough, I have many more thoughts skipping through my head, but I'll leave it at this. Any random thoughts making their way through your brain today?

Fall Picks

9.07.2010

I love clothes, but I am much more comfort over style kinda girl. But as the mornings become cooler and the days become shorter, I am starting to think about what my fall and winter wardrobe will consist of.
{via Old Navy}

I know that this color could be considered a little "bright" for fall, but I love the blue! I think that with the right jeans and flats, it's could be a perfect addition to my closet!

{via Old Navy}
I am sad to say that I am absolutely in love with this dress! It has all the perfect colors of fall and with some grey leggings and {again} cute flats...oh my goodness!

This is yet another item from Old Navy and yet again, I'm in love. And at $60, it's not a bad price for nice pea coat. They have several differnt colors, but I think this one looks the best.

{boots via here}

{via Target}


I've always loved boots and I love that they are a popular item this year for the cooler months. I plan on stocking up!

Any suggestions to complete my fall/winter closet?

A Good Start

9.06.2010

Whew! What an opening Saturday of college football. The Appalachian State Mountaineers proved once again how much of a 2nd half team that they are and pulled out a 'W' by 1-point. But, a win is a win. And in the same, a loss is a loss despite how much heart went into it. The North Carolina Tar Heels, whose defense has been ripped apart in the final weeks of this off season, showed a significant amount of heart Saturday night against the LSU Tigers.  It was a heartbreaking loss with a final score of 30-24. To remind myself of just how close it was is the hardest, but it also gave me hope for the coming games.

The best part of Saturday was spending time with my wonderful husband, one of my very best friends, Allison and my brother-in-law. We cooked out on our charcoal grill {hooray!} and ate way too much food and yelled a whole lot more.


Both of the Janke men manning the grill



yummy!



Have I mentioned how happy I am that football season is here?

Yet Another Thing to Make Me Smile

9.02.2010

After what felt like an excruciatingly, painful waiting period, the time has come to start preparing my heart and mind for the 2010-2011 basketball season. And yes, I said heart. After last season that was filled with {on my end} heartbreak, anger, and pure undiluted disappointment, this coming season has taken too long to arrive. And yes, I realize that I am still waiting another 2 months, but really, I think I can handle it. Now I have football to fill the void of the sports obsessed shape hole in my heart.

Yeah...I am serious.

 
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