Lies, Fear & Avoidance


For as long as I can remember, I have been an avoider. For some odd reason, I am under the impression that if I don't address something or even acknowledge it's existence, it will just go away. Newsflash to me; it doesn't. This may apply to pimples, but not to real life. I have yet to figure out why I do this, because over the years, I've learned, it doesn't work. Problems have to be faced in order to be fixed. Lies and fear {one in the same} are the evil twin sister of avoidance and they come as a package deal. They have been visiting me a lot lately. What makes all of this worse is that knowing God and His goodess should make it easier to not allow those things in my life. But lately, this has not been the case. Lies and fear make me think about what will happen if I cannot find a job after my project ends in January. They make me think the worst case scenarios; not having money for food, losing our house, the list goes on and my head and only in my head. I have already known God as a provider, yet I still hear the lies and fear skipping through my mind. And the worst part about it is that lies and fear have the same maker--satan.Why listen to anything that is even breathed by anyone that isn't God? There is only one answer to that; I shouldn't. I have only known of God's goodness in my life, so why would I start doubting that at this season in my life?

In absence of answers. In absence of possibilities. In absence of comfort.

In absence of it all, His goodness is revealed.

"My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts," says the LORD. "And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.--Isaiah 55:8 {NLT}

If the Good Word said nothing else, that verse alone should sustain me. Why doubt Him? Why try to control my life when I know that He's in control and that means everything is as it should be? So I ask God to simply silence the lies and take away the fear.

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.--1 John 4:18 {NIV}

I know I've posted similar things, but I'm working on this and this is a great medium for me to face it. With that said, please pray for me.

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short stack said...

there is no doubt in my mind that you will find a job. you're smart and dedicated, and you will be fine. the economy is just in the crapper right now and it's dragging everything else along with it. patience is key. :) <3

i'm still keeping my eyes peeled if i see anything!

amy (metz) walker said...

I'm a "fix it" girl so I totally understand how you are looking at January and starting to feel the "pinch". Often, when I am feeling that way I have to remind myself of the verse that talks about not fearing for tomorrow for tomorrow will take care of itself. Oh my goodness, that has been so true in my life over the past two years. Every time I wonder if I was OUT OF MY MIND for starting a business in the worst economy for decades, I just remind myself that tomorrow has it's own troubles. I've been trying to take things one day at a time and one prayer for strength at a time. In more than one area...

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