Freely I Have Received...


Do not judge, or you too will be judged. ..Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?  How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye. -- Matthew 7:1-5

I am a little unsure how to begin this post because it's extremely honest. And though I do not lie on this blog, I am often times overly cautious with exposing myself as well (even if that seems hard to believe). It's a thin line that I tread, but I've done it pretty well. But God laid this on my heart today and where better to discuss then right here.

I have started to notice how quick I am to judge notice all the things that other people need to change or what people are doing that aren't the "good Christian" thing to do. And as I'm seeing all of those actions and hearing about those decisions, I give myself a pat on the back and praise for not being like that. And then God...reminds me that it is not my place to judge or to boast in anything but Him alone. And how far I am from where I need to be.

May I never boast except in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ, through which the world has been crucified to me, and I to the world.  -- Galatians 6:14

There are so many things that I need to work on and improve in my life and in my walk with the Lord, that a list would take up more post windows then Blogger could offer. I am far from where He needs and deserves me to be. I have become complacent and comfortable and that is scary. The question is, what I am willing to do about it and give up for it? I can be mean, quick to anger, unforgiving and selfish. Clearly, I am not the poster child of what a Godly woman is. Why am I so quick to point out the flaws and weaknesses in others, but even faster to cover mine up? God has not called me to be a judge; He has called me to love and to pray. And I do not do that nearly enough.

As I'm typing this, I'm trying to gather my thoughts so this post is somewhat coherent and hopefully not too rambling. Though I'm not sure at succeeding, I'm realizing that this post was very necessary for me to write. I need to be honest about my shortcomings and expose the areas that I so desperately need to work on and need prayer in.

Although I am less than the least of all God's people, this grace was given me... -- Ephesians 3:8

Everyday I thank God for His love, mercy and grace that brought me through the day. But did shed that on those around me? Did I shower that love and grace on my own husband? Sometimes. Is sometimes enough? The short answer, no. Sometimes is not even close to being enough. Could you imagine if God only loved us sometimes? Or if when His son hung on the cross it was only for some of our sins or only for some of the time? We are all at different places in our lives and our faith. Maybe you needed to read those words just as much as I needed to type them. I know that I won't walk away from the keyboard or lift my head off the pillow tomorrow morning and be instantly where I need to be in my faith. But I can hope and trust that God is going to keep revealing to me the areas that I need to improve in order to serve and glorify His name. 

Freely you have received; freely give. -- Matthew 10:8

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short stack said...

so, i can't help but think that my potty mouth (and possibly brett's) aided in the coming together of this post, but, nevertheless, being around you has always made me feel like a better person :)

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