I May Not Be There Yet...


By now, most of us have at least heard of the New York Times Best Seller, The Help.

I was a little late hopping on the train of it's numerous readers, but I made it and thoroughly enjoyed the story. Today I read an article about the author that reminded me, sometimes we don't love success stories because of the end result; we love them because of how they got there. Kathryn Stockett's first novel was rejected 60 times.

Rejected. 60 times.

She was told her writing was "tiring" and the storyline itself "didn't sustain interest" and that was early on. Those were not the words she heard at rejection 58 or 59, they were the ones she received at 1 and 40. But passion is a funny thing because at some point resolve and tenacity start to fade. Giving up and moving on would be easier than opening up one of those dreaded letters. I remember going through the college application process and praying to never see one of the small, seemingly harmless envelopes waiting in the depths of my parents mailbox. Because though small, they served as sealed punches to the heart, gut and self-esteem. Now I assure you, I did not apply to 61 colleges, so I do not even have an inkling of the wide spectrum of emotions someone goes through having to endure that time and time again. And if I'm being honest, rejection and everything that comes with it, is something I fear and because of such, I did not apply to the one university I had always dreamed of attending.

Childish and dumb? Yes, probably. But it was easier for me to swallow being those two things before being rejected. Bleh. What an ugly, awful word. None of us like it. Rejection and not being wanted is something none of us crave.

So let me go back to the passion thing. We all have a passion in our lives, but very few of us are lucky enough to live them out. As you may remember from this post, I'm still trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. Except you want to know a problem with that?

I fear rejection. I am terrified of falling flat on my face, making a fool of myself and never getting to where I want to be or getting to do what I want to do. I accepted a long time ago that not everyone will like me in my life and I had my heart broken a fair amount of times growing up. Those things, that's life. It's a necessary part of becoming an adult. Pursuing my passion? Not necessary. I do not have to pursue my passion; as long as I have a job that can help pay the bills, then I'm doing what is necessary.

But can I fully accept not trying? No, I absolutely cannot. I know what I love and I know what I'm good at. I love writing, but could I ever write a book? That is one huge, overwhelming no. I love sports {that's putting it lightly}, but can I play? Not a bit. I have no athletic ability whatsoever. But I can watch them and understand them. Are you getting where I'm going with this? My passion, I have discovered, is to write about sports. I have no idea how I'll reach and conquer this discovery, but I'm not sure I could live with myself if I don't at least try.

All of this to say, I'm would love suggestions, words of encouragement, names of potential connections {worth a shot}. And also, I implore you, if you haven't already, find out what your passion is life. I realize that statement in itself warrants a resounding 'duh', but it's worth putting out there. Don't live life just one foot in front of another because sometimes you will trip and stumble and maybe even fall.
Sometimes you'll have to live your life out seeing how well you can bounce.

The road to success is dotted with many tempting parking places. ~Author Unknown


6 i love your comments!:

Lori said...

This is an awesome post. And so fitting to what stage of life I am at right now. Thank you for sharing these words. I particularly love the quote at the end :)


Kristen Baker said...

Was just going to post about my late-bandwagon-venture for reading this book as well! It was such a fantastic book, I read the first half in a day! Ahh, I am such a book worm.

Love the rest of the post

carissa said...

this is a good reminder. i want to read this book... i think it's next on the list.

Erin Branscom said...

what a great blog! I became a follower! : Erin

Lauren said...

Catching up on some blogs with my new-found free time... I needed to read this today. It is so trie. Thank you so much Maggie! I hope you can make your dreams come true!!

fieryriver said...

wow, i am so blessed by this post and by her story. thank you for sharing this.

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