Roller Coasters


I have never been a fan of roller coasters. Not even when I was little. The sensation of working your way up, just to be dropped, is not my idea of a good time. But there are times when your life feels like a roller coaster filled with emotional highs and heartbreaking lows and there is nothing you can do about it except ride it out.

That's been my world for about 5 days.

My oldest best friend got married this past weekend and I was blessed enough to stand up there with her and hear her say "I do" to a wonderful man.

I could not be more happy for Whitney and Brett and this wonderful journey called marriage that they have started. 

That would be the high.

The low came around 10 o'clock on Friday night when I got a call from my brother letting me know what my wonderful, sweet, great grandpa had gone home to the Lord.
And though it wasn't entirely unexpected, it still hurts and it is still sad. We seem to believe that the expected passings lessen the pain.

It doesn't.

My Papa Lacy was an amazing man who loved the Lord and all those around him. He was a hardworking man that didn't let his age define him. I have so many memories in their house and of them and I hope that those will stick with me for years to come. One memory that I will always treasure is when I was little, he tried to teach me how to waltz. This of course didn't go over all too well because I have the attention span of a gnat. I am thankful that he has been reunited with his wife and that he is no longer in pain, but the selfish part of me misses him. You never truly recognize how much someone means to you until it's too late to tell them. I'm so glad that I was able to see him just a couple of weeks ago and spent both Thanksgiving and Christmas eve with him.

I know that this is just part of life, but that doesn't make it easier or less exhausting. I'm blessed by amazing friends and family who have been there for me over the past few days and I am so incredibly thankful.

But I've never been good at goodbyes and sometimes saying them is the hardest thing to do.

"Let's don't say goodbye...I hate the way it sounds. 
So if you don't mind, let's just say for now..." 
Jason Aldean


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Unknown said...

This is a very touching post. You can take comfort in knowing he is with Lord and is pain and sin free :)

Nicole said...

I am so so sorry to hear about your great grandpa! Not being on Facebook, I didn't know! I'm glad I saw this. I can't imagine the pain but know one day I will. You seem like you were just as close with your grandpa as I am with mine, so I know you must be so so hurt. I will be praying for you & your family! <3

short stack said...

i am just now getting back to the computer after a week away from it so forgive me for the lateness but I LOVE YOU and i am so happy you were with me, and i am also so very sorry for your family's loss. but now you have one more guardian angel up there :) and if you ever need anything please call/text/email/facebook me. and i can't wait for you and andrew to come visit.

<3 <3 <3

CAC muffin said...

you are in my those and prayers I am so sorry for you loss- celebrate his life! :)

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