Fear of Failure and Success


Fear of failure is something many, if not most, of us are familiar with.  No one likes to fail or disappoint or feel any sense of inadequacy, but chances are, at least one of the aforementioned has happened to us at some point.  Unfortunately, it's a part of life.

And, fortunately, it's a part of life.

What if you never had a chance to fall flat on your face?  Then you would never know how many times you were capable of standing back up again or the depth of God's grace.  What if you never had another opportunity to do something better and settled for what is?

This is a difficult post for me to write because it's something I am currently struggling with.  As I've mentioned, I've started writing for the Examiner in hopes of jump starting a passion into a career.  It's no secret that I'm borderline obsessive with my feelings towards the North Carolina Tar Heels, so I may as well try to make a living being that way.  I was so sure that this jump start would be one of the easier things I've done in my life.  I'm writing about something I love.  Win-win.

Except, what if it turns out I'm not good at it?  Or, scarier still, what if it turns out I am good enough and could actually live out my dream?  There is no concise way for me to explain these feelings, so you'll have to bear with me.  Richard Dumb (the name is ironic to me) once said "Don't follow your drams; chase them."  But when you chase something, there is no guarantee you'll catch it.  And that my friends, is when faith must be bigger than my doubt.

Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? Since you cannot do
this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?
- Luke 12:25-26

I cannot concern myself with what may or may not happen; the only thing I can control is if I'm glorifying God in the "chasing" process.  To worry or to have disbelief is not what has been asked of me nor will it do a bit of good.  At the risk of sounding negative, God never promised I would get to live out what I consider my dream.  And in a weird, inexplicable way, that knowledge gives me peace.  He allows me to try and work hard, and to have faith in knowing His will is what will prevail.

Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts
...and be thankful. - 
Colossians 3:15

On a less serious level, I've also realized the fear of failing and succeeding can also apply to me learning the guitar.  I know I'm currently not a good guitar player, but I'm contributing money and time to learning how to play this instrument.  There is no guarantee that I'll be good, but there is also the chance I could become good.  Is the chance worth the hours and dollars? Who knows.  The only way to find out is for me to put myself out there.  I realize I'm only talking about a hobby, but for some reason, it's easier for me to explain.  It's not my dream to rock out on stage, but it is my dream to write.  The possibility of me spending months and years pursuing a writing career and never achieving it, is high. 

 But I'm just scared enough to find out.


This Time of Year


As much as I brand myself as "crazy Christmas girl," I absolutely love this time of year.  Knowing that we're standing on the threshold of the Christmas season, but still embracing the beauty of fall, just makes my heart smile.

Per usual, I cannot believe we've officially arrived at Thanksgiving week!  Turkey Day is my second favorite holiday because it's purely dedicated to the celebration of thankfulness and family.  And obviously eating too much and watching football :)

But in all seriousness, Thanksgiving is pretty awesome because it's not about presents and getting more; it's simply about being thankful.


This is also the time of year when I start thinking about our Christmas card.

Scratch that.  I probably started thinking about that in June, but that's neither here nor there.

A couple of weekends ago, a dear, talented friend took a few pictures for us, and I fell in love with all of them!  We went out to her husband's parents farm, which turned out to be the perfect setting.  I won't fill this post up with all of them, but I can't help but sharing a couple a few!

love this one
this sweet one has photo ready!

And finally, another fantastic aspect of this time of year (at least in my opinion) are the sports taking place.  I realize football, both college and professional, has been taking place for a few months, but college basketball has officially started, and that makes me a happy girl.  As I mentioned here, I've started writing for the Examiner, and would love for y'all to check out my articles.

Happy Monday (which is actually kind of like a Wednesday for most of us)!

Once Upon a Time, I Blogged...


Oh my blog! How I've missed you! Just when I think life is going to slow down long enough for me to actually be allowed to call myself a blogger, I'm proven wrong.

I hate being wrong.

I probably shouldn't be so shocked that my last post was in a different month, but here I am, shocked. And not only is it a different month, I am a different age.

That's right.  I was 26 for my last blog post and I am now writing my next one at 27. Scary.  I tried to convince everyone to let me stay 26, but still celebrate my birthday. They failed to see how that could work. My birthday was pretty low key, which was ideal considering the rest of this year has not been. Sweet husband got me a Kindle, which was exactly what I wanted!

Last weekend we went to a bonfire and had a great time.  I'm starting to realize that we as humans rely too much on always doing something, and by humans, I mean me.  We all had such a great time sitting around (on bales of hay I might add) and doing nothing but enjoying each others company.  In world of being constantly connected, it was nice to be momentarily relieved of social media. Although I can neither confirm or deny if I posted this picture to Instagram.

And in other news, I've started writing for the Examiner!  I would love for you guys to check me out :) The more visits, the better!

Sadly, this is all I have the capacity for on this lazy Saturday, but I PROMISE to post multiple times next week.  Ambitious, I know.

Happy Saturday everyone!
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