Giving Thanks in Trials...and Trust Issues


I am so ready for Thanksgiving, but at the same time, I can't believe it's next week! I am really trying to be better at appreciating what Thanksgiving is and not just think about the fact that it ushers in the Christmas season.

She Reads Truth just started a new series, Give Thanks in All Circumstances, and a portion of the introduction to this series struck a chord with me:
Life does not magically get easier or shinier during the holidays. The hard things we are in the midst of are still hard. In fact, the sharp edges of our difficult circumstances are even more painful when juxtaposed with the beautiful orange and brown place settings, with the coming of Christmas lights and holiday cheer.  
But God. He is with us in every circumstance. He is with us in the joy and pain, in the plenty and need, in certainty and confusion.  
And His presence with us? THAT is why we can give thanks. That is why our circumstances are just that – they are circumstances. The heart and hope of the gospel does not change. Ever. And if that gospel – that Savior Jesus and that Creator Father and that Holy Spirit Companion – if they are here with us even in this, then how are we not to praise him? How can we help but give thanks?
The reason this rang so true and deep for me this morning is because we are facing uncertainty with our sweet dog, Dani.

After noticing she was having difficulty standing up after laying/sitting down, and sometimes favoring one of her back legs, we took her to the vet and learned that her knee joint is popping in and out of place. Since the extent of my medical expertise comes from Grey's Anatomy, I'm not entirely sure what that means, but I know it sounds painful.  We go back on Thursday for x-rays and to find out if she'll need surgery or not.

I know to some, or maybe all, this circumstance doesn't seem like much, but for me, it's a lot. Our dogs are our children and the idea of her being and pain and the not knowing what is going to happen, stresses me out. I have never handled the unknown well.  I like to have a plan and going with the flow sometimes seems like a foreign concept to me.

As bad as the words I'm about to type are going to sound, they're honest; trusting the Lord is hard for me.  I can say that I am and I can tell other people to do the same, but actually putting it into practice is near impossible for me at times.
...though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.  1 Peter 1:6-7 
I know that each trial I have and will face, is refining me. I know that the view I have on my life is limited and fractured, while God sees the whole. I know He is in the big, small and in between moments. I do know that, but sometimes a lot of times, it's difficult to rest in that knowledge.

I am thankful for the fact that despite my faithlessness, God is still God. My disbelief doesn't change who He is and what He is going to do.

In this time of uncertainty, and each day of my life, I will take a deep breath, and continue to rest in the knowledge of who He is.

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Beth Hoffman said...

Please know that your sweet Dani is in my prayers. It's so hard when one of our beloved furbabies is hurting. I hope she won't need surgery, but if she does, keep the faith that all will be well. Sending hugs to you, my friend!

Ashley M said...

so sorry to hear about your sweet puppy. I know what you mean, they're our furbabies and I know how upset I would be so I hope that everything is ok with your sweet Dani and that it will be an easy fix!

Laura Darling said...

Oh no! I hope she is okay.

JaneA said...

I know exactly how you feel. My grandpa has recently been admitted to hospital with critical kidney failure. It's so hard to experience that and also be excited about the holiday season. ANd it's so hard to trust, and to be grateful when life gets tough. Thanks for sharing, and I'll have to pop over to "she reads truth" to read the full devotions. X Jane

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